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Yo hope u doing well, this text is to clear some things up that may have been a bit foggy maybe because i didnt address anything cuz i thought lowkey theres nothing to be discussed like everything has been said implicitly before. But since apparently based on the stuff i heard were not on the same footing regarding the situation i thought some clearups may be needed so here we are.
1st things 1st i didnt talk shit about u or anything of that sort id appreciate if u do the same all that happens is basically i stopped treating you as a friend ( brother really ) and rather started considering u the same as id consider a random person u bump into on the streets, no hate no grudges no hard feelings if ud come and say hi id say hi, if maybe kach nhar nkoun m3a bacha mjm3in f 9ahwa wela tji mrhba i dont mind but it aint gon be the same as before really i wouldnt really see u in the picture i wouldnt address u in any way if u talk to me i may reply or may ignore depends on how the question is asked and i may leave sometimes once u arrive but as i said no hard feelings really.
U might ask why am i being like that and maybe ( certainly ) think ur a victim to my selfcentered egoistic narcissistic view but its actually not the case and im here to break it down for you so buckle up:
The way i see u is some selfish immature kid, narcissistic, egoistic, a bad person بكل ما في الكلمة من معنى and imma tell u why.
In psychology narcissism is protecting a very fragile sense of selfworth by needing constant validation and control, ring a bell?
Min kouna ntrinou ud go around saying "im fat" to hear people saying nah ur not w idk w idk, tbh سوء الظن mchi mlih so i rly did think u were struggling and shit like even tho ur not fat anymore u still think ur fat but then ki tsm3 ppl ygouloulek Laaaa rak mlih w idk say u got the validation from minimizing urself u start bragging how fast u achieved that shit and how effective it was and lie about the duration and lie about the details and yes im considered a person who remembers chwiya bzf details so id notice when ur lying ki khatra tgouli 3 months w khatra whdkhra tgouli 1 month yeah ik ur lying, so basically thats one side to a narcissistic profile thats basic manipulation and seek for validation.
Another side to it is the grandiosity, the feeling of superiority and yes u may not use this often against me bsh why would you say that shit lel bacha, shabek no? When it comes to swalhek tgoulhom hna khawa w mn3ret no? Why u always bragging? Maybe bragging is a personality trait i dont have the right to judge u for that so ignore it ma3lich, why tf would u call them out on the stuff u did for them? Dont uk bali ki tdir lkhir lazem tensah? Ana w nta fi 2 3lblna bali bacha mynkrouch lkhir mghdich dir fihom lkhir w yjik ghadwa yglk mchftch men 3ndk lkhir so 3lach thothom f hadik situation? Goulnaha w 3awednaha المن حرام rassoul fel 7adit sa7i7 ygoul:
عن أبي ذر -رضي الله عنه- عن النبي -صلى الله عليه وسلم- قال: ثلاثة لا يكلمهم الله يوم القيامة ولا يزكيهم ولهم عذاب أليم، قال: فقرأها رسول الله -صلى الله عليه وسلم- ثلاث مرات، قال أبو ذر: خابوا وخسروا من هم يا رسول الله؟ قال: المسبل، والمنان، والمنفق سلعته بالحلف الكاذب. رواه مسلم.
And tbh i started being a bitch towards u on so many occasions w hadi one of them, since u didnt want to stop bragging w had المن welit n9antek on purpose, when u brag i brag more when u victimize urself to seek validation i call it out directly, it was effective rly ud stop directly cuz thchem its like im stripping u out gdam ness exposing the shit and the lies and since ur selfcentered self care soooo much about what ppl think ud stop, its indeed effective.

Speaking of سوء الظن something that u also do is that ntaya jay insan that assumes the worst in people, b nisba lik dealing with people is like business yla bnadem rak ms7a9 men 3andou haja important ur all nice and shit, w yla tedi men 3andou fayda u deal with him at the very least, bsh bnadem m3ndk men 3andou walou mayfidek fi walou hes just useless ud treat him like shit. That being said lets talk about some of the stuff u did kima haka, basically there was a time knt ttrini m3a bacha gtlk yla ttrini sbah m3aya, aya ur mind immediately sees the worst in things the 1st thing u thought what good does he have in this, like since thats what ur mind is programmed to do ( to filter stuff based on lfayda li tjih ) u assume everyone is like u aya u were like hes offering to go with him b loto and shit why would he do such thing, aya gtli rak baghini nji m3ak cuz u have no one to go with? Why would u assume the worst, if that was my bottom line koun mkntch nroh ntrini i literally knt nroh sbah bik w bla bik, i didnt want someone to come with me i wanted one of my friends to come with me mafihach fayda its just a vibe. Hadi example of many many others bla mnhdrou 3la all the times ta3 koun bla loto mnjich, w the times ta3 tgoul l bacha koun myjich houwa mayjich like come on krht mnhom that much? Houwa rah rayah sema normally nta ya tbghi troh ya nah sema what difference does it make ki nji ana?

What i said about bacha tani calls out on another trait of narcissism and its the lack of empathy, ch7al men khatra ngouloulek 9bel mtgoul wela tdir haja khamem fel bndm li rah m3ak put urself in their shoes and the same u dont wanna be hurt dont hurt nobody mtgoulch its just me wela, even bacha they call u out 3la hadi w hna tbh giving u the benefit of the doubt kouna ngoulou he grew up alone maybe my3rfch but bro rak kbir sema aint no way tgouli à chaque fois mt3rfch tg3d ghi mt3rfch no matter how often ppl call u out on it? And then it hit me... he doesnt even care thats the lack of empathy mthwssch 3la other ppls feelings i mean why would u care right? Theyre irrelevant, and ofc ud be telling urself no im not like that wela m3ret bsh thats the sad reality sa9si others ygouloulek, cuz koun bsh u care u wouldnt do half the shit ur doing, and example for that would be how come ki dir lkhir f bacha ana n3rf? 3lh 3labali b almost all the times drtlhom something? Ur not doing it lihom solely, u do it to brag, u do it to have something to hold against them in future koun mydiroulekch haja rak baghiha,
tjou m3aya? No, yaaaah ha9 lkhir... 
Tgoul kach haja w u want validation, my3toukch validation, aaaaaa ha9 lkhir...
Hadou broad examples ylemoulek bzf scenarios sraw u can double check m3a bacha to see it through cuz dw im not that selfcentered to call u out on things haka wahdi, hdrt m3a bacha over the span of years and years like manich mhboul right? Mchi ghi ana tbnli haka right? Manich DAAAAALMOU right? Its okay tho na3tik a specific example for this:
The time mou lbacha mrdet w kanou fdar whdhom w gtlhom my mom tyblkom w idk that was such a nice gesture, bsh ana m3lblich w mkch 3lh n3rf, 3lach 9ara3t hata min kouna fi rahba which was tomorrow hchiya bach tgoulhom "ohhhh yadra lentille ta3 lwalida 3jbkom? Aaaa gtlkom ki mtsibouch li ytyblkom jibouli swlh ana nteyeb" why would u say such thing gdami, i remember it well w bacha tani, tla9ina all of us hchiya w nta tla9ithom sbah knt 9ader tgoulha ki kntou whdkom why did u choose hata knt ana tema? Saha benefit of the doubt again gal maybe nsit sbah w tfkrtha ki knt tema, 3lh mtgdbch wahed fihom 3la jiha wahdou w tgoulah? Uk the amount of embarrassment the amount of pity li thotha 3lihom? Ofc u dont cuz u dont even try to know kifach yhessou when u say the shit u say its irrelevant yeah cuz drtlhom lkhir and they must be "thankful" to me nadir their savior, if u think im wrong ghi tfeker b chwiya m3aya, 3lach fimizek ma3awdouch jaw 3ndek tyblhom moraha? Cuz they felt SHAME w akdli 3liha hadi shame, gdami ana tmenen 3lihom, w houma being the great ppl they are mytigouch yhdrou cuz cvr drtlhom lkhir mytigouch ynkrouh to call out ur BS wana hadi li kanet tnrvini most koun jaw yhdrou 3la rwa7hom koun ja 3ndhom 1% m narcissism li 3ndk yhdrou w y9l3oulek bsh no they remain silent and endure it all, ana li knt a side character knt nchouf brk w ghdtni aya houma kifach yhessou just try to imagine? W hadi mchi gal sometimes dirha wela, dirha since so long meli 3rftk basically and u still do it actually, like seriously WTF is "dirlah sandwich" i mean come on it became this petty now? Oh maybe since its recent its good to break it down for u maybe ud finally understand so here me out, basically if i have money lets say 500da i want to do a good gesture lesgo bro aya nkhlss 3lik sandwich ( the plan is to get 2 sandwiches ta3 250da for us both ) nroho rana ghaya but shit the plan is ruined lhanout mbl3 aya nroh l whdkhr, ndkhlou nsib the cheapest ydir 400da shit i cant afford 2 of that and now here me out, how TF did u see adlene someone yall know ghaya basically a friend ( even if it was bndm whdkhr my3rfou twhd w it aint ok btw ) and the 1st thing to come to ur mind was to say dirlah sandwich ta3 400da, its something li koun tsib hadouk lk7alech ta3 sadaka bara mngoulahch kima haka a man has dignity why would u mop the floor with it, legit nta t3rf bali theyre nice people sema he wouldnt eat yla matakolch nta aya lets say ur such a nice person w bghitah yakol w nta La 1st thing ud bring up an excuse saying manich ji3an wela rani mrid wela haja hak to make him feel good about it cuz uk mytigch yakol w nta tchouf, 2nd thing mtgoulch l adlene "dirlah sandwich" its like saying hey adlene ana 3andi drhm w houwa m3ndhch w rani jay nkhalass 3lih look at me im so generous ghadi houwa yakol wana La ( u might not see it this way basically cuz u didnt try to put urself in his shoes bsh adlene tbnlou haka w bacha tbnlou haka thats why he was so offended ) wela wela wela another option mthdrch roh dkhol gal adlene atchou had sandwich yjibhoulek 3tih lbacha w skot wela 9asmou meah koulou noss noss mghdich ygoul La.
Nzidou f had mawdo3 la9ta ta3 f bhar jana bnadem jdid alaa ik mt39louch bsh ghadi t39el l hadik la9ta, basically n3rfou cuz 9ra m3aya primaire and even so mntigch nkoun comfy enough m3ah to do the bs u did, bro kan y3oum khalalek koursi g3dt fih nrml, bro khrej mel bhar ja khalak ga3ed g3ad f remla and then 3awed dkhal f bhar ki khrej mbghach yg3d f remla bach mytwsskhch cuz mbghach y3awed ydkhol, its just BASIC courtesy to ask him do u wanna sit on UR OWN CHAIR, but yeah udc right? Ki cheftou haka i had to step in cuz my3rfkch w hes nice tani he cant call you out aya gtlk khalih yg3d aya nta drtlou gtlou bi tg3d? Bro being nice glk La yla bi tg3d g3od, i mean just the way he said it mglkch La mchi bi ng3d glk yla bi tg3d g3od aya nta nah im fine, aya i had to step in further ik u remember me being a bitch dek nhar thats the story behind it w mtgtch nglk nod khalih yg3d cuz houwa ness mlah ygouli khalih so i made it about me gtlk lemme sit aya u were like nah, hhhh bro ga3ed in hours bsh ur the priority u come 1st our precious king hna l3abid this is another side to narcissism its called entitlement u feel like ur entitled to stuff ur not, w tani tbnlk ki dir lkhir f bnadem rak entitled to have something done for u back 3ladik when it doesnt happen tebda tmenen w 3ladik tbnlk ur so grandiose and above others.

Aside from that another trait would be sensitivity to criticism but this is a point u worked on and i watched u grow to deal with it, embrace it and use it to become a better person i admire u for that good job hands down nothing to be said here since u fixed it theres no need to call out chasra m 9bel.

Another side to it is the concept of image > authenticity, i talked about it m 9bel ta3 tkdeb bach tbeyen rohak w the deep concern about how ur perceived w status w reputation bsh what i didnt say is that this brings out haja whdkhra chayali? A narcissistic person b had tkhmam always changes personality depending on the audience, this definitely rings a bell right? And please dont mistake it with changing the vibe with different people like m3ak 3andi vibe w m3a bacha 3andi vibe hadi human nature, what i mean is bnadem mt3rfou my3rfk aya fik tby3 ta3 u wanna bring down the common prsn which is me wela bacha and btw i forgot what they told me about this u def do it lihom a lot more than me so roh s9sihom ygouloulek nsit examples related to thembut for me, when i 1st introduced u to my frnds u started telling em embarrassing shit about me bach tdhkou 3liya hhhhhhhh m9wd nadir, not only ali w zaki w jma3a but even in valo ki knt thdr m3a youcef aya bach dahkou tyhli hhhhh bnadem mt3rfou ma y3rfek ma sahbek ma walou aya wana li tgouli khawa w mn3ret tdhkou 3liya and yes i dont neglect me doing it back too bsh notice the phrasing "doing it back", w its not only about me rly ana antihero tyhli w ntyhlek labgha mn3rt ga3 chdrt fiya khir tkhreb fiya njbdek i stopped being nice with u fi balak 3 snin welit tghlet n3tik cuz 3raft bali mchi mt3rfch i snapped out of my daze 3rft bali 3lblk b klchi, bsh why would u do it l bacha theyd never do it to u, like hna fi hna tz39 3liya wela 3lihom wela nrml were friends bsh ki tsib berrani gredha wela at least at least dont exaggerate with it mtrohch b3id, bla mnhdrou tani 3la all the times ta3 tgoulena tjou 3andi ldar aya we be like naaah wela hesitating wela u be begging us bach njou like come on nl3bou this and that, aya ki ndkhlou u have to appear as the victim to even ur mom, houma bghaw yjou mtgtch nglhom La sayi sayi mghdich ntwlou nkhalihom yl3bou chwiya w nglhom yroho Oh how generous of u, u think we dont hear that shit wela ki tbnlk? Ofc u gotta maintain the image labgha u make us sound like were begging u to let us come to play the game U WANNA play, pc 3andek 24/7 ana 3andi pc ta3i idc much l3ab cha tbghi labgha ntfrj, bsh bacha uk rahom bla pc tdakhalhom khalih yl3b charah baghi haw t7awlah yji 3ndk mb3d yl3b cha tbghi nta wela lah ysahal?

Bsh the problem with all this mchi the fact that u do all this shit, the problem is u dont stop we all human beings ga3 nghltou meme ana mchi malayka ki nglk tdir shit liya w bacha mchi m3ntha ana ni hasseb jamais la drtlkom haja wela bacha hasbin jamais la daroulna haja 3lblna bali we all fucked up at some point an example of that would be mohamed ki knt nz39 3lih 3la cha3rou w idk w knt ngoul its for the best ki ntnmr 3lih ana w n9ntou ywalef bach koun ydirhalou whdkhr mysm3ch bih ana f dek lw9t kanet tbnli rani ndirlou f haja mliha bsh who tf am i to say whats good or bad for him, the only difference between us w nta is that hna we reflect on ourselves ki nglk u put urself in their shoes w idk its to avoid most of the problems bsh not all of em cuz we all make mistakes bsh the right thing to do is to acknowledge them work on them and fix them, bsh nta being a narcissistic person tbnlk ur always right w daymen tsib a way to victimize urself sema u never reflect on urself and even when u do u go back at it all over again its just that insignificant, winta i made this conclusion there was a snapping moment ki kouna ntrinou jayin men ares b loto hdrtlk 3la all of it, even then i called u on ur narcissism i accused u of being a narcissistic person w fhmtk with details and examples they way and the how and u accepted it ( part of it at the very least yla mchi klchi idk bsh u said u understand it now ) w gtli ill work on it w gtli ill discuss it m3a bacha, up until then knt mlgr all the shit u do ngoul theres hope like we all fuck things up bsh it can be fixed he just needs guidance i gave u the benefit of the doubt, like i cant simply judge a person whouwa blk m3lblouch, aya i decided to lay it down bare and clean on the table for u to understand and i made sure twsslek lfikra, when that happened i just spectated, observed what u did with all of it, bsh mkn walou u dont change mchi cuz u cant its cuz u dont want to, it started piling up bdit nchouf bali theres no hope until the fallout of it all nhar li tla9ina bara flil 3ytoulek glt 20min w nji wana g3dt basically around that time bach jit w mb3d zedna rohna chrina s9ayet which took time mb3d mohamed kan raged nad w g3dna nkhrmtou fih bach yji m3ana aya g3ad bach gal saha nji mb3d rah houwa tani chra i mean rak tchouf how much time passed after ur "20min" sema its only natural for abdeljalil bach y3ytlk asking wirak, bro is playing his game and we all know mkch game u used to play yg3dlk kter men 1hr f partiya forcibly, the online ones myg3douch sa3a w offline ones tig thbess whenever, sema u just wanted to play rather than come bsh m3lich tbh i didnt care much hadak lw9t cuz i lost hope in u mchi kima bacha back then, ki 3ytlk gtlh douk nji mb3da g3ad yhdr m3ak w nta mchi jayeb 3lih as if "rani dayer headset mnsm3ch" he called out ur name ya rabi 10 times i was there to see it all mb3d ty7lek in ( a lower voice than the one he was calling out ur name with btw ) w gta3 aya nta tema banet how bitchy u are like banet ch7al 7ili and thats what enraged abdeljalil, if u didnt hear him call ur name that many times w l3btha saket u shouldnt hear him ki ty7lek right? Well la3alayna im not justifying it, what he did was wrong ty7 kima tbghi bsh mtjbdch lwalida ( he reflected on it btw and knew what he did was wrong ) aya nta jit all mrbb and shit zagit w mn3ret w ro7t, sema we waited for nothing? w ana khmmt like his problem is m3a abdeljalil what do we have to do with anything bsh dw dw were not as selfcentered sema we didnt think much about it goulna its only natural rah z3fan and shit i mean i would be too ( see i put myself in ur shoes bach manedelmekch ) aya ghadwa men dek it was a friday khrjt mel joumou3a as always nadir once again fayet w btw tahet 3ayni fi 3aynek w bro may3abrek ma yhwss ma walou even tho ana w mohamed khatina hbibna didnt even say salam ch7atha direct, aya the pile broke down khmmt f klch ga3 chasra like since FOREVER w bali chr7tlek w fhmtk w u still behaving the same as before with no remorse whatsoever aya it was then that i decided.
Uk l9issa ta3 سيدنا صالح l9awm ta3ou kan yd3ouhoum lil w nhar, bsh kan ygoul fihom dou rah kayen hope, ki sayi sab mkch hope galhom فما تزيدونني الا تخسيرا
I acknowledged ur a bad person, bad to the core, and i did what my din told me to do and its called الإعراض as in
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I just chose to do that based on every input i got for all the years ive been dealing with you, its only good for me i see no hope in u and u being this way only bring negativity and toxicity to my life and the lives of people around you, and once again go talk this out with bachas theyd agree.
This is basically a summary of the keypoints to everything that has happened theres a lot that hasnt been said too trust me, not just from my part even from bacha's parts there are a lot of things lingering there, and idk if uk or not about em but at the very least for me i thought u deserve to know why it all concluded this way and what happened from this side of the world that led to this conclusion.